2 June 2006
Today is the second anniversary of my operation. It has been 2 very long years. I was reading my blog dated 1 June 2005 and I found it interesting to see the changes. I'm definitely a lot better physically and also psychologically. I don't remember it anymore until i read my blog that I had an exercise bike back then but I didn't go to the gym and I have almost forgotten that the bathroom rennovation was done around this time last year. I think the biggest change is probably my confidence. I have forgotten that I used to feel like the huntchback of Notre Dame and was always hiding away from people. I know I still feel a bit uncomfortable in a crowded situation but compares to what I was like before, it's miles better.
I forgot to mention this in the blogs that I was in the city on my own a few weeks ago. I have always dreaded going to the city on my own because of the crowd. I haven't been to the hairdresser for almost 4 months and thought it's time that I have a hair cut. My hairdresser is on Little Bourke Street and is a bit hard to get to. Tim asked me to catch the tram but I was too scared so I managed to persuade him to drop me off and I might catch the tram home later. When I finished at the hairdresser's, I felt like going to St Francis - a church I used to go and felt I have a special connection to. My hairdress is at the corner of Little Bourke and Russel Street so I walked all the way down Little Bourke and cut through Myers and St Francis is just opposite to Myers. I was a bit distracted when I was at Myer, I haven't been shopping for a long time and can't remember the last time I was there on my own - must have been before my operation. I looked around and bought a few things before I went to St Francis.
After visiting the church, I thought since I was already in the city I might as well look around and go to the shops I wanted to visit. Being a gym junkie, I had this urge to go to Rebel Sports and check out the fitness gear. I walked all the way from the cornor of Lonsdale and Elizabeth Street to Bouke St Mall. I noticed that from time to time people woule look at me and then look down at my legs or feet. I have jeans on so my ankle brace was not visible. I suspect they looked at my legs because I was limping a bit. I was surprised that it didn't bother me much when people looked at my walking. I think I would be mortified a year ago. After getting few things from Rebel Sports, I caught the tram home. It's not so bad to catch the tram once I have the Metcard ready because it means I don't have to walk around in the tram trying to get a ticket.
I think going to the classes must have helped in making me less sensitive to people looking or staring at me. When i went to the Tri Atheletic class on Monday, there was one part of the class the instructor was doing something similar to a line dancing sequence so you need to turn around at the end of each sequence. I couldn't turn because I felt I was provoking the ankle inversion so I ended up facing the wrong side and had to stay that way until the routine was finished. I didn't know what I was suppoased to do so I thought I'd just do the opposite to what everyone else was doing. It was pretty funny. I don't think I would find that amusing at all a year ago though.
One big landmark achievement is that I can finally do pushups!!! I didn't know until I went to the BodyPump class yesterday and when I tried to do pushups on my knees (some people call them girl's pushups), I could feel that I was doing them properly because I could get more weight on my arms and shoulders. My short term goal (in the next month or two) is to be able to do pushup on toes - the peroper pushups.
I was a bit disappointed that Tim was not that enthusiastic when I showed him my pushup. It made me feel like that TXU commercial - the TXU employee just babbles on about what they do and the listener seems a bit bored and the caption says - we're excited by gas and electricity, even if you are not. When I went to physio this morning, I told Gavin I have a new trick to show him. When I showed him my pushups, I was disappointed that he had the same reaction as Tim had - is that all? He asked me if the reason I couldn't do it before was because of my weak shoulder and told me I still need to get my hips down a bit because I was sticking my butt out a bit. Oh, well, at least I'm pretty excited by this new achievement.
I'm just getting ready to go to my classes - BodyPump and BodyStep. I'm a bit scared of going to BodyStep because Alex is taking that class this afternoon. I think it's important to update my blog today and just jot down my thoughts so in future I can always look back and make comparison.
I forgot to mention this in the blogs that I was in the city on my own a few weeks ago. I have always dreaded going to the city on my own because of the crowd. I haven't been to the hairdresser for almost 4 months and thought it's time that I have a hair cut. My hairdresser is on Little Bourke Street and is a bit hard to get to. Tim asked me to catch the tram but I was too scared so I managed to persuade him to drop me off and I might catch the tram home later. When I finished at the hairdresser's, I felt like going to St Francis - a church I used to go and felt I have a special connection to. My hairdress is at the corner of Little Bourke and Russel Street so I walked all the way down Little Bourke and cut through Myers and St Francis is just opposite to Myers. I was a bit distracted when I was at Myer, I haven't been shopping for a long time and can't remember the last time I was there on my own - must have been before my operation. I looked around and bought a few things before I went to St Francis.
After visiting the church, I thought since I was already in the city I might as well look around and go to the shops I wanted to visit. Being a gym junkie, I had this urge to go to Rebel Sports and check out the fitness gear. I walked all the way from the cornor of Lonsdale and Elizabeth Street to Bouke St Mall. I noticed that from time to time people woule look at me and then look down at my legs or feet. I have jeans on so my ankle brace was not visible. I suspect they looked at my legs because I was limping a bit. I was surprised that it didn't bother me much when people looked at my walking. I think I would be mortified a year ago. After getting few things from Rebel Sports, I caught the tram home. It's not so bad to catch the tram once I have the Metcard ready because it means I don't have to walk around in the tram trying to get a ticket.
I think going to the classes must have helped in making me less sensitive to people looking or staring at me. When i went to the Tri Atheletic class on Monday, there was one part of the class the instructor was doing something similar to a line dancing sequence so you need to turn around at the end of each sequence. I couldn't turn because I felt I was provoking the ankle inversion so I ended up facing the wrong side and had to stay that way until the routine was finished. I didn't know what I was suppoased to do so I thought I'd just do the opposite to what everyone else was doing. It was pretty funny. I don't think I would find that amusing at all a year ago though.
One big landmark achievement is that I can finally do pushups!!! I didn't know until I went to the BodyPump class yesterday and when I tried to do pushups on my knees (some people call them girl's pushups), I could feel that I was doing them properly because I could get more weight on my arms and shoulders. My short term goal (in the next month or two) is to be able to do pushup on toes - the peroper pushups.
I was a bit disappointed that Tim was not that enthusiastic when I showed him my pushup. It made me feel like that TXU commercial - the TXU employee just babbles on about what they do and the listener seems a bit bored and the caption says - we're excited by gas and electricity, even if you are not. When I went to physio this morning, I told Gavin I have a new trick to show him. When I showed him my pushups, I was disappointed that he had the same reaction as Tim had - is that all? He asked me if the reason I couldn't do it before was because of my weak shoulder and told me I still need to get my hips down a bit because I was sticking my butt out a bit. Oh, well, at least I'm pretty excited by this new achievement.
I'm just getting ready to go to my classes - BodyPump and BodyStep. I'm a bit scared of going to BodyStep because Alex is taking that class this afternoon. I think it's important to update my blog today and just jot down my thoughts so in future I can always look back and make comparison.
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